Fear Fest!
In honor of October and Halloween, there are tons of haunted houses, tours, and spooky movies playing on TV and movie theaters. I love to be spooked, Halloween is a fave of mine because of the fear fest! Speaking of fear, there is a fear in me when it comes to the fitness aspect of my life.
Fear of failure?
Fear of success?
Fear of being lost among the rest?
I've come to realize that fitness competitions causes a lot of fear and anxiety within myself. At this moment, I am in a state of mind where I want to start new, de-clutter my mind and home...and fitness competitions came to mind. I have a plan to compete again in 2012 but thinking back to last year, I had a lot of worries, fear, "what ifs" during contest prep. I can't control what the judges want, I can't help my body structure, I am the only one who holds myself back if I worry about those components. I was missing out on the positive aspect of competing: meeting new guys and gals, improving my physique and skills, the challenge.
I'm going purge my fear during this fear fest month, I will continue to build my mind and body the best I can so it won't consume my entire being when I am in prep next year. :)
Besides competition dreams, I have career dreams, relationship dreams, self empowerment goals...competitions are just a small part of my life and I had a tough time balancing it but have no fear, 2012 will be a bad ass year!
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